When former on-screen couple Tanya R-Siam and Ble Pathumrat met on the show Ble AM, they delved deeper into their current lives and revealed personal stories that no one had ever known before. They had never met their father since they were born, and admitted that married life was like living in separate homes. They also opened up about their hearts that hurt so much they could barely stand it. They revealed that their lives had been ruined and they had thought about ending their lives, but their first film was what kept them going!
Is it true that sometimes couples focus too much on work and each person lives their own lives, as if they are not together?
Thanya: It’s true. When we livestream together, it seems okay, but when we turn off the livestream, it’s like we’re all in our own lives. We’re all playing on our phones, focusing on work, like we’re separated.
So how did you adjust to live together and have children today?
Thanya: Try to tell him to tell him that you love him every day because at least we will know every day that we still love each other. But if you can’t do that, tell us. I want to tell him that we’ve been through a lot in our lives. So, for him to come into my life, I didn’t ask for much. I just asked for mental support when I couldn’t handle it, when I was sad or crying. I just felt that I wanted someone to come and comfort me. That alone made me feel good.
Have you ever had a big fight?
Thanya: Yes, the worst was when I used the word “gu” or “mung”. At that time, I already had a child. It was like, “Why is it so hard to get along with each other? Why is it so hard to get along with each other?” Because of our different personalities and communication skills, we grew up in different ways.
Thanya Ar Siam, what was the old name that her parents had to give her?
Thanya: Kanyaphat Twinan, nickname Kukkik, let me tell you first.
No one knows this yet: Thanya has never met her father?
Thanya: I’ve never met him. My parents separated when I was around 3 years old. My mother took me away and we went our separate ways. We lived our own lives. I found out later that my father had passed away, but I didn’t know why. I found out when I was 17. My mother posted on social media looking for my father. Then my father’s relatives found him and told me how he died. In short, he was heartbroken and wouldn’t eat or drink. He held onto my picture tightly. He was heartbroken that my mother took me away. But he followed me from the South to Roi Et on a motorcycle. My mother went to the police and told them not to interfere with me.
Do you feel sorry?
Thanya: It wasn’t like there was a connection from the beginning, and I didn’t feel like a father. But when I heard the news, I felt that when he was crying for us, thinking about us, and he was holding us tightly, and he was going to stop breathing, thinking about us, thinking about his mother, what we were doing. But when I found out, I cried. I felt that it must have been very painful.
I am a very sensitive person when it comes to love, whether it’s family issues, having problems with my mother or past love. At that time, how did I decide to solve the problem and get through that point?
Thanya: It had to be done gradually, one thing at a time. At that time, there was COVID. We had to pay off the house and the car with just our own strength. Having problems with my mother was a very serious matter. At that time, love was like a shield that protected our safe zone. After the matter with my mother was over, we were okay. It turned out that our safe zone hurt us. It was a turning point that made me feel like where was my life going next? It was like there was no one in the world who truly loved and wished me well. That period, in 2021-2022, was the time when all my cheerfulness disappeared. Then I had to pull myself back to see a psychiatrist for about a year or two.
What is the origin of your thought of depression?
Thanya: At that time, we had already planned our death. We had always planned what we were going to do. One thing that kept me alive was that I would always tell everyone that I survived because of the movie LOVE Le Roi Et that we had starred in, but it never got released. COVID-19 bought me time because I really wanted to watch that movie because it was my first lead role. I once told P’Mam that this movie really did save my life. When the movie was released, it happened to be the time when I went to the doctor, so I didn’t think about dying anymore. But at that point, when I was facing a serious problem, the person I loved the most hurt me. There was no point where I thought about living for someone else, doing everything for someone else. I felt like I couldn’t go on. And I didn’t talk to anyone about the reason I decided to go to the doctor because someone told me that I didn’t know what it meant to love myself. I loved the people around me.
