Let me tell you, this woman uses the word beautiful very extravagantly, “Yoshi-Rinrada Thuraphan” , who opened up on the WOODY FM program about living a life that requires perfect beauty all the time, which makes her feel stressed. In terms of love, she has been single for many years, finding a boyfriend is difficult, trying to flirt with men, but they don’t like her, to the point where now she feels protective of her own time and doesn’t want to share it with anyone.
Are you someone who is not very confident in some aspects?
Yoshi Rinrada: When I was a kid, I was very confident. I was the prettiest in my group. I was the prettiest in school. But when I grew up, there was a time when I was put on hold, like during the Miss Tiffany competition. I thought I would definitely get the crown. On the day I went, I wasn’t a beauty queen. I was a net idol. When I went, there was a drama that said I wasn’t suitable to be a beauty queen. After that, people started to criticize me. From someone who was very confident that I had talent and beauty, when I got negative comments, I was distracted. After that, I was someone who lacked confidence quite a bit. I lowered my self-confidence a bit.
How does being braked benefit us?
Yoshi Rinrada : There will be breaks that allow us to develop ourselves and breaks that are abrupt, like not listening to anything we don’t like. I hate people who use violence. In the past, we didn’t have that many people interested in us. At first, we were stressed, but when we were often told these words, we got used to them, used to the insults. Later, we didn’t care much about the insults anymore, we cared more about the people who gave us advice and told us what we needed to improve.
What do we still want to do now?
Yoshi Rinrada: Right now I’m very happy with my work. I don’t know what will happen in the future or what I’ll do next. I just feel like it’s like a step forward. Right now I’m really enjoying making content, so I want to do something more exaggerated. I want to create a platform that’s getting bigger and bigger. I like making transformation content, I like dancing, I like lip-syncing. It’s one of the skills that I can do. I think I’ve done it well, so I like to do it.
About relationships?
Yoshi Rinrada: There is love from people around me, but many people might be focusing on their boyfriends. When you go to many shows, everyone wonders why they don’t have boyfriends, no one courting them. Actually, if we speak truthfully, there are people who come in, but when we’ve been single for a long time and we get older, there’s nothing that can stop us, like, “No, this person isn’t right.” That’s why we haven’t had a boyfriend until now. I’ve been single for 3-4 years. When I started wanting to find a boyfriend, why is it so hard to find one? No one courting me. I yearn for love so much, I want to have one. I go and check DMs to see if any men have texted me.
Or go and look at old chats that we never opened to see if anyone was flirting with us, but there was none. What should we do? Consult a friend who really wants to have a boyfriend. She said, “Try flirting with him.” Okay, I started to open my mind. I flirted with men, who I used to be very arrogant about. I’m pretty, so people must come and flirt with me. When I told him, I felt sorry for myself, but I understood from the man’s perspective. If he’s not the one, then he’s not the one. When I flirted with men, they didn’t like me. I tried to be persistent, chatting a lot until I was annoyed with myself that it was okay, if there was none, then it was fine. I found the good points of not having a boyfriend. But I was lonely. I didn’t want to focus on that anymore. But if he came, I didn’t turn it off.
Are you a time-saving person?
Yoshi Rinrada: I used to spend 3-4 years alone, and when I had to talk to someone, I had to divide my time to feel protective of my own time. I would think hard if I really wanted to share time with this person. Later on, I became more open-minded and talked, but if they had the same 1, 2, 3 habits as my old one, I wouldn’t be okay with it at all. I could just cut them off. It’s easy to cut people off, I’m afraid of wasting time from that. But when I was a kid, no matter how bad they were, if they were my type, I was ready to adjust myself, exchanging my time to give them to them. On the contrary, when I grew up, I felt protective of my time.
Life must be perfect?
Yoshi Rinrada: In the beginning, I went to a senior’s birthday party and they took leaked photos of each person and posted them. At that time, I was still lucky, but the leaked photos were still beautiful. People would say that Yoshi was not photogenic at all. Everyone else was leaked but Yoshi was safe. When people started complimenting me, I felt like, shouldn’t I keep leaking photos? Like I’m not photogenic. At first, I could dress up and leave the house every day. There was never a day that I wasn’t beautiful. After a while, I started to get tired, thinking about it, and stressing out that if one day I went out to meet my fans and they saw that I wasn’t beautiful, would they be disappointed in me?
Nowadays, when I go to 7-11 without makeup, I have to wear glasses and cover up with a mask. I’m afraid that people will see my bare face and say that I’m not as beautiful as in the picture. So it makes me really stressed. I feel like I’m not myself. On days when I don’t wear makeup, I definitely won’t leave the house. When I’m really tired, I feel like I don’t want to be beautiful anymore. When my friends come to take pictures, I start to make my face look ugly, so people see that Yoshi is starting to look different. I want everyone to see different perspectives. There are days when I’m gloomy, and days when my hair is frizzy.
