Revealing everything “Jenny – Ratchanok Suwannaket” compares herself to a cat with 9 lives, has gone through many dramatic storms, admits that in the past she was self-deluded that she was influential in social media, but now she has learned, she is a new version of Jenny, her child is her breath, today she wants to be a good mother, to continue fighting for her child and family, on the WOODY FM program.
Since the first day we met, you’ve been through many storms in life. How would you define your life today?
Jenny: A cat with 9 lives has been through a lot. Today, it’s like a new version of Jenny. You’re like an older brother that I want you to know that you’ve grown up. I can’t say that I didn’t cry, but I want you to know that I’ve improved a lot.
I can feel it. I think we will never stop learning because the world is always changing. But we can cope with it?
Jenny: It’s not like before when I encountered drama, I would cry, take videos, and scream like a child. Now, when I encounter drama, I think, analyze, and think carefully before doing so. It’s not like I’ll ignore it or ignore it, but I’ll just think carefully before deciding what’s best.
At that time, I had a younger sibling. After that, I understood that I would need to add another member to the family. It turned out that it wasn’t as I thought, I had two miscarriages. How do you feel as someone who hoped to have a child but ended up having one? How did you heal your feelings, both father and mother?
Jenny: But it stuck in my mind for a bit. I was sad because I told everyone all the time that I wanted to have a family, where if there was a picture on the wall, it would be 5-6 people or more. I wanted to have lots of children. I wanted myself to be truly happy, from the person who was my child, from the child who was born to me. It was like my body had accumulated too much stress. The first one, I knew right away that he died because I cried every night. From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I saw my family crying a lot, crying morning, noon and night. I knew because there was bleeding. In the end, I went to the doctor and he miscarried. I could only blame myself that it was because of stress.
There are some situations that we have never experienced before, we cannot avoid crying. I still blame myself for making another person I love so sad, my boyfriend. He cried for a month. I got through it because I was strong because of Eugene. He did not know anything about it. But I cried every day. I forgot to even order food for my child. I forgot to even give him love. Since the most valuable thing is sitting here, we should focus on him. That’s why I tell everyone that Eugene is my breath. If today I did not have Eugene, I might not be alive anymore. Because what I encountered in life was too hard to live on. But today, I live my life because I want to see him grow up. I want to know what he will be when he grows up. Will he be a singer or an actor?
After going through all these material things, we finally discover that life is just about family love?
Jenny: Yes, even if you have hundreds of millions or billions, if you are hurt by someone you love, it’s over. Let me tell you, my life is because of the people around me, not money or things around me, not the big house I have. Even if I have a big house today, if I didn’t have children or a good husband by my side, we wouldn’t be able to continue. I tell my husband every day that I miss the days when I sold shoes so much. I speak from my heart because back then I sold shoes without any pressure. I enjoyed selling things. No matter how much I sold, there was no drama. No matter how loud I spoke, people wouldn’t scold me. But these days, if I say anything, it becomes news for the whole country. If I make even one mistake, my life will be criticized by a mob. But if you ask if I want to go back, I don’t want to go back (laughs). Today is a good day.
It has its advantages, everything is always good, right? Today you have a lot of followers who love you and are an inspiration to many people?
Jenny: Today, I came from home with the intention of being a positive force for you and for everyone. After there was so much dramatic news that everyone was prejudiced, whenever I saw Jenny, everyone felt negative and toxic. I want everyone to receive new energy, energy of success and energy that is full of happiness.
How did you learn to let go, because in the past you carried a lot of things?
Jenny: I used to control everything. I thought I could control everyone. If someone cursed at me, I could talk back to control you and tell them not to curse at me. There were problems within the company, within the family, and with the artists in the company. I thought I could control how things were. Until today, I know that I can’t control them and I can’t change other people. The only thing I can change is myself. I had to change myself a lot in order to continue working in the industry and doing the work that I love. I taught myself to let go and understood that what I couldn’t control was to change myself.
How is your relationship with Nong Lily now that you have a family? The time you spend together seems to be less?
Jenny: Yes, before I could accept it, we had a lot of arguments because we grew up together, Lily has been with me my whole life. Until the day I got married and decided to come to Bangkok, that was the day he felt the most hurt and cried the most in his life. He couldn’t accept it, didn’t eat, didn’t leave the room, didn’t do anything because he felt that I left him to love someone else more. I tried to send him a message saying that if one day Lily has a family, he will understand, which is not today. I’m sorry I’m not close to Lily but I promise to support you. At first, I tried to explain, but he didn’t listen because he felt that Phi Jen loved Phi Yiw more. Until he knew that I was very tired. With my younger sibling, my child, my boyfriend, my family, and my work, I cried a lot for him. Then he started to feel sorry for me and understood. All he could say was that if you’re free, come and see me. I also told him that if you’re free, come and live with me. But he still didn’t come because he likes living down south. Now he’s much better. And he secretly likes his free life without Phi following him around or stopping him.
How can I help my husband overcome his suffering?
Jenny: We almost broke up because of other people. I apologized to him every time I had the chance. Since he came into my life, he was stressed. He used to have a lot of positive energy, but his life was full of toxic things. People outside might only see him once in a while, but he was with me every day. He was stressed out about me, I don’t know why, there were a lot of problems and drama from being Jenny. It’s not fun, it’s not simple. I apologized to him a lot until he crystallized that he asked himself if he really wanted to go, if he really wanted to break up with me. And he said that in the end he didn’t want to break up because he loved me a lot.
I couldn’t imagine where I would be if one day he wasn’t there, how would I live? Who would I cry to, who would I eat with, or how would I consult about things that other people wouldn’t know? So he asked me just one thing: from now on, don’t let the problems of people around you or other people cause us to have problems with each other. Can you come into the house and be Jenny, his only girlfriend, and not take negative energy or fight with anyone and take it out on him? Whatever happens, take it out on him. We agreed. Until he told me I could do it, and I did really well. Ever since I cut everything out of my life and left just me and our child, I feel much happier. And I have to thank him for still being here.
How is Eugene?
Jenny: It’s so cute. Thank you for being born. Thank you for coming just in time. I don’t know if it weren’t for him, we might have really died. He is my breath that makes me want to live every day. I want to wake up and work for him. I want to be a better person for him. I want to be a good mother. I want to be a new version of Jenny. I want society to be open-minded because of him. Because I don’t want my child to grow up with a mother who is often criticized by mobs. Nowadays, since having Eugene, in the past, if I posted a clip or a picture, 80% of people would criticize me. But now, there are hardly any. Plus, there are people who come to protect me if someone criticizes me. I feel that this reflects that time has proven that since we had a child, we have really improved. In this life, I can do everything for him. I can die for him. These are the words that parents say. I don’t know how I feel, but today I know.
Your followers are very inspired by you. Before reaching this point, we had to go through something. Today, people have seen the real you that has passed. Is the truth what keeps us going?
Jenny: The truth is the same no matter how many times you tell it. The truth never dies. But the truth must come from the wisdom to communicate to people. In the past, it was the truth, but when it was communicated, it seemed like a lie because we didn’t have the wisdom to live our lives. We were new, we were just famous, we were rich, we had a lot of power and influence on social media. At first, I accepted being narcissistic, but the truth then and now is the same. It’s just that the communication is different. This is more perfect. I’ve learned to be calm, mindful, and ask myself first if it’s true or not. Because sometimes what they criticize is the truth, but we just can’t accept it. If it’s true, it’s okay. I apologize.
