The overwhelming intensity caused her to develop a panic disorder, and she shares her story of a romance that began as a friendship.
It’s called the most successful. from behind to foreground Hai – Thanwa Ketsuwan or Hai Paper Planes, and artist with a unique identity. that creates viral phenomenon on social media The landslide has risen to the top of the idol idols of milk tooth teenagers. Most recently, he opened his mind on the program WOODY FM. causing panic disorder Ready to tell the story of love from friends to lovers.
What was the biggest obstacle last year?
Hay : When the band had hit songs, everyone thought I would be the happiest, but it came at a price. It caused me to suffer from panic attacks. I should mention that I had been working behind the scenes for a while, earning my own money and having a comfortable standard of living. During the time the songs were popular, I was used to working from home; it felt like a safe zone. I didn’t have to interact with different kinds of people or travel in ways I disliked. I’m afraid of flying and dislike crowded places. But when the first song, “Sa-saeng” (Pretend), started coming out, I had to meet a lot of people and travel in ways I didn’t like. I wasn’t getting much sleep, which led to me suddenly suffering from panic attacks. I became severely afraid of confined spaces and flying, to the point where I had to see a doctor. I think that was the worst thing that happened last year.
Did it start last year? ?
Hay : Yes, it was probably around the beginning of the tour, around the time of the single “Pretending”.
What was it like when you first had a panic attack? ?
Hay : I was on a plane and my heart was racing, I was sweating, my pulse was rapid, and I was shaking. I wondered why I was so scared, I didn’t know what it was. It got worse when I got into an elevator and I became extremely claustrophobic. I started noticing my heart racing and sweating. When I went to perform at concerts and was around a lot of people, some were nice, some weren’t, I started feeling like I was losing my comfort zone from working behind the scenes. I felt like the people around me weren’t trustworthy anymore, and danger was everywhere. There was one incident where we were about to perform at a pub, and then news came out that the pub had a fire. I felt like, even though I had released hit songs, I was having a lot of unhappy moments. So I talked to friends and consulted a doctor. They diagnosed me with claustrophobia (fear of open spaces). It’s been about 3-4 months now.
And is the panic still present? ?
Hay: The initial panic attacks aren’t happening anymore. The doctor said the medication only helps a little; the rest we have to face. We have to adjust our mindset. So I’ve started adjusting, and things have improved a lot. I can take elevators and I don’t have many problems on planes anymore. It only happens occasionally when the weather isn’t good.
Are you in love? ?
Hay : I have a girlfriend now. It’s a good relationship; we’re like friends and understand each other because we were friends before. At first, she didn’t even like me because of my appearance. I didn’t smile much because I had a lot of life problems during a period when I was building myself up. There was a lot of stress, so I wouldn’t smile often. But as things became more stable, I started smiling more and more without realizing it. My girlfriend didn’t like me much back then; she thought I was pretentious and didn’t care much about others. But one day, she saw the changes in me—in my life, my mindset—my gradual growth, my struggles, my self-improvement. She started to like me and her prejudice melted away.
Does he like you a lot now? ?
Hay : I think he really liked it. (laughs)
Even I was surprised by the song. The “ Bad Boy” style song became a hit with kids all over the country. How did this phenomenon happen? ?
Hay : At first, it started with the song “Pretending.” Back then, kids started dressing like that, but it wasn’t very clear yet. Then, with the song “Bad,” videos of people singing it started appearing. The most obvious one was from Safari World, where kids were singing it loudly. I turned to my friend and asked what was happening, who was playing it for them. Then, more videos like that started appearing. They started singing it in schools, and then there was the video of the kids in blue shirts performing a mini-stage, and then the reporters started writing all sorts of things. We were confused because it wasn’t what we planned at all. We were shocked and didn’t know what to do. We didn’t know how it happened. Even at the camp, we were confused. Then, when we saw the kids at the event, their parents started bringing them to watch, my life changed (smiles), but it became more fun because we love kids.
Do you feel like we have more responsibility? ?
Hay: I feel like we’re thinking about superhero movies. I don’t feel like a superhero myself, but it’s a good comparison. When someone gains powers, they have a mission to save the world and fight monsters. But along the way, their powers have downsides, like destroying cities, doing things they can’t control. It’s like suddenly becoming the leader of a gang. Kids like me, and some things they absorb quickly without judging or analyzing them. I avoid anything risky or unexplainable right then and there, but I explain what I can. I think ultimately, kids just need to know the pros and cons, and one day they’ll accept it. But importantly, they need to understand the consequences. So I think we need to think more about this, because more and more kids are following this kind of thing.
